You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have...
I try always to have positive thoughts and to not dwell on the negative. Most of the times
it works. After all life is so much more pleasant and enjoyable when we face it with the
right attitude and with a positive outlook. Yesterday this was not working so good
for me. I was and still and very sad about the death of my sisters friend. To add
to that I also have a few friends who are currently experiencing loss of
a loved one. All of this combined made for a not very good day.
Try as I tried to put this out of my mind I could not. That is I can't seem to turn a "blind"
eye to the tragedy that is unfolding so close to my sister. It think of a little girl who
today is now 18 years old. I remember her as a little girl. Only met her a few
times while visiting my sister. She called me auntie Nad.
Just remembering that is tearing my heart to pieces.
Yes theses things happen everyday. The thing is I know the people affected and that is
what is breaking my heart. The world is full of tragedy. People dying everywhere,
but I don't know them.I am terribly sad right now. More than I can understand.
In my mind I see a little girl with no dad anymore. I see changes that
one did not plan for. I see a lot of pain and in all of it I also
see the start of friendships renewing.
Many years ago someone told me that time does not take away the pain. What time does
is that it makes it more bearable. There is no way one would believe this when the
loss of a loved one has just taken place. I never believed it, but trust me time
does wonders. Time heals the heartache a little at a time. Today my worst
enemy are my memories. Time does not take those away. That is good
and sometimes not so good, but it is what it is. It's called LIFE!!
On a better note, today is my baby sister's birthday. All grown up now with three
adorable kids of her own, two beautiful doggies and a one of a kind husband. She has
everything one could want in life. I love her from the day she was born and nothing nor
anyone will ever change that. The bond between sisters just keeps getting stronger every day.
To all a very good day. Here in fort Lauderdale it is going to be VERY cold the next
two days, I can only imagine how cold it is right now in the rest of the Nation.
Life seems sometimes like nothing more than a series of losses, from beginning to end.
That's the given. How you respond to those losses, what you make of what's left,
that's the part you have to make up as you go...
~Nadiya~
