May 1, 2016

Routines...

If you think adventure is dangerous, try routine it is lethal.
Brutus, I miss our routines.  I miss how happy we were with you..

Sunday morning.  Calls to Norway.  Yes, Sunday is family day for Arvid.


I don't have a specific day for family.  Everyday is family day for me, but I guess
 if my family also lived so far away I would have one special day.  It's a routine Arvid has 
had with his family like forever.  They like it and he likes it.  Arvid likes routines, and this
 one is a good routine.  His mom and Victoria know that he will call withing certain hour of 
the morning and they wait for that call.  Michelle we Skype with on Mondays.  Routines.
Arvid's mom just told him that in Horten, Norway they are planning to build floating condos.

This morning T told Arvid that Victoria will be having dinner with Michael's family 
today so he may want to call a little earlier just to make sure he got hold of her. 

Well I misunderstood, and the outing was yesterday.  Of course Arvid was not too 
happy to "break" his routine.  But he got over it fast.  Yes.  Arvid likes his routines
 very much.  I also do, but I also like to break the routines every so often.


Sunday is looking good here.  Beautiful day.  Outing with friends planned to
a very beautiful spot in Hollywood, Florida.  Pictures to follow tomorrow.

Everything is good right now.  There is just a place in my heart that misses my
 Brutus like crazy.  That cries over Shadow's short tragic life. There is never a single
 moment in the day when Brutus and Shadow do not cross my mind.  Never.  We wish we 
could hold our Brutus again.  Sniff like Shadow does not like getting picked up much.


Happy Sunday all.  Remember that sometimes the less routine, the more life.

My daily routine: get up, be amazing, go back to bed.
Sometimes the break from your routine is the very thing you need...

~Nadiya~

Apr 30, 2016

Here Is To A Good Day..

Some of life's lessons are learned at the worse times, never let
 the world change your smile let your smile change the world...

Thursday was  take your daughter to work day.  Of course Lilly Vade was up bright and 
early in the morning all dressed to go to work with her daddy. Excited and happy as always.


Her dad works in Washington, DC and of course in his job one needs a VERY high
security clearance.  For the fun of it all Lilly Vade was scanned and "checked" for whatever
it is that should not be on a person.  She did the same last year so she is a pro.

 She had a blast dressing up in SWAT uniform, having her face painted and enjoying
the attention. I miss this little girl and her tight hugs very much.  She is LOVE.


Arvid and I had a quiet Friday.  We ended going for a walk to the beach.  Listening to music.
Of course enjoying Pina Coladas and meeting up with friends from the building..
As far as Fridays go this one was relaxing, enjoyable and very delicious.


Saturday is looking to be another gorgeous day here in the Sunshine State.  The boats are
passing by all the time.  Sniffer is sound asleep.  Arvid relaxing watching his soccer games.

 I have had lots of time to catch up with some book keeping.   Yes a relaxing and productive
day so far.  Hope to go to the movies tonight so will see how Arvid feels about it.


To all a very good Saturday.  Remember, take it one day at a time and enjoy the journey.

One day at a time..this is enough.  Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone;
and do not be troubled over the future, for it has not yet come.  Live in the present
 and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.  Happiness is a journey... 

~Nadiya~

Apr 29, 2016

One Of Those days...

Don't start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday.  Every morning wake up and 
live like it was your last day here on earth.  Tomorrow is not promised to any of us...

Not sure how to explain grief, but one minute you're having a pretty OK moment, 
next thing you know, it changes.  Without warning.  This is what's happening right now. 


 Maybe the sound of the dryer.  Maybe the fact that I just saw Sniff play with Shadow's 
headless mouse or maybe the fact that he's really never far from my thoughts.  Whatever 
the reason is, I'm right now grieving for this little Kitty who on May 17th would have 
been one year old.  Same day as Brutus.  Right now I am really, really very sad.

On a better note, Sniff finally decided to play with the mouse.  Play means he kinda 
kicked it around a few times before getting bored and decided to sleep with it.


It's already Friday.  The days are going by so very fast.  Sniff is becoming very attached
 to us and of course we to him.  Arvid and I love Sniff.  He is a good kitty for us.  

We are grateful to have him to share our lives with.  No matter all the sadness there is 
always something good to be grateful for.  Today among many other things we are grateful
 for Sniff.  My heart is still heartbroken over my Brutus and Shadow, but life is good,
 and we have to make everyday count and make the most of each day.


Wishing everyone a very good day.  Remember our lives do
not get better by chance.  It gets better by change.


Whatever you decide to do, make sure it makes you happy.
Do you ever wish you had a second chance to meet some oneagain for the first time?...

~Nadiya~

Apr 28, 2016

Another Day....

Time has a wonderful way of showing us what really matters.
The bad news is time flies.  The good news is that you are the pilot...

The days, the weeks, the months, are just flying by so very fast.  As we all know time 
stops for no one.  Does not matter who you are.  What you have or who you know. Time
 stops for no one.  Soon Arvid, Sniffer and I will be going to Chicago for the summer. 


 Chicago is definitely my favorite city as I have mentioned so many times before, but I'm 
not exactly sure if I am excited or not.  Arvid is very excited and talks about going
 there everyday.  For me Chicago is Arvid, Brutus and I and not taking him 
with us is just freaking me out. In my mind home is with Brutus.

That's probably why I refuse to think much about it.  From Chicago we will take off 
to Norway.  Usually I stress over Brutus because of how his paw was.  Always hurties. 
 Now Sniffer is healthy.  I hope always.  Last year we went to Norway for 28 days.
   This year we have no Brutus and we will only be there for 18 days.


I try to stay busy all the time because I still find that when I'm not doing something 
my mind wanders even more.  Yesterday Arvd was out and I had to take the clothes out
 from the dryer.  I could not.  I still can't touch the dryer with out wanting to scream. 
 Finally I opened it after half an hour and let it stay open for an hour until it was 
cooler.  It's just so hot in there.  So hot.  I don't want to go there.  I can't.

Today is 175 days without Brutus.  175 day I have not seen him.  Held him.  
Hugged him.  Kissed him.  175 day that I have been missing my baby,
 and as Arvid bluntly puts it, "he's never coming back."


Today is also 54 days since my little shadow died.  How crazy life is.  Soon Sniff would have 
been with us for 2 months.  He's brought laughter back into our world.  I'm training him
to have his leash on for when we travel.  He of course hates it, but a little everyday, and I'm
 sure he will be good.  Today was his first try.  He has a lot to learn. I guess I can say the
 same about me.  I have a lot to learn about life.  A lot. It's a learning game everyday.


Good morning everyone.  Just a reminder to take time and appreciate what's
 right in front of you.  Take time to be grateful.  I am doing the same.  Today, everyday.

The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.
Dear God, if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have...

~Nadiya~

Apr 27, 2016

Thought For Today...

Sometimes the only way to stay sane is to go a little crazy...

This is how I am feeling right now.  
This is who occupies my thoughts right now.


Yes, I am having a good day, but my heart is missing my Brutus.  Hope your day is a
 good one all.  Remember life offers us all a second chance.  It's called tomorrow.

Life goes on whether you choose to move on and take a chance in the unknown.
Or stay behind, locked in the past, thinking of what could have been...

~Nadiya~

Apr 26, 2016

Scenic Days....

The most important thing to do if you find yourself in a hole is to stop digging.
It's easy to get wrapped up in sharing everyday life with a partner.
 It's fun to get lost in love and romance. It's the best. But holding on 
to yourself while doing that is the most important thing..

Outings to Miami are always beautiful.  You see everything you never thought
 you would and some.  Miami is just a short drive from our home in Fort Lauderdale.


The Greater Fort Lauderdale area contains more than 300 miles of canals that weave 
through the area. About 165 miles run through Fort Lauderdale itself, giving it the 
nickname found on the city seal, “Venice of America.” The canals sport their own
 South Florida flair with a mix of both romance and edginess and are a part 
of the urban sprawl, visible from train tracks and the skyscrapers.


Some of our favorites places are only a few steps away.


I do believe that some of the best views we have are right from our own home.
But definitely the best views are the ones I share with Arvid.  The ones we shared with Brutus,
 and for a short time Lil Shadow.  And  of course, now the ones Arvid, Sniffer and I share together.



I have a good life.  Can't deny it, but my heart is still missing my baby.  Everyday


Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, 
if one only remembers to turn on the light ..

~Nadiya~  

Apr 25, 2016

Meanings...

Someday I will be able to look back on today and be grateful for being strong,
but today I'm just trying to keep my strength up and make it to tomorrow...

What does your name mean?  I'm not saying I believe this is the case, but what caught 
my attention was the fact that Arvid, Brutus and Sniffer's name has the same description.


My name had it's entire own meaning and when I read it to Arvid he said it suited me well.


Shadow's was also suitably for him.  Especially  the part of his uncontrollable nature 
and the fact that he stood out from the crowd.  Shadow was Fearless.  I miss that lil one's
 hyperness and his non stop motion.  He just loved life and was not afraid to show it. 
 

Monday morning already.  New week.  New possibilities and always something to
be grateful for.  As always I see the new day filled with possibilities and look forward to 
getting lots done and to making sure that I stay focused on the positive and good things in life.


To all a very good day.  I have to say, I know everything happens for a reason,
 but sometimes I wish I knew what that reason was.  Don't we all wish we knew.

When life knocks you down try to land on your back. 
 Because if you can look up you can get up...

~Nadiya~

Apr 23, 2016

Birthday Boys...

Birthdays are good for your health.  Studies show 
that those who have more birthdays live longer...

Arvid, Sniffer and I all have birthdays in April.  Mine came and went already.
Both Arvid and Sniffer celebrate birthdays tomorrow.  Little Sniff turns one year, and 
Arvid just a few more than Sniff.  Yes, both boys at home have the same birth dates.


Nothing big planned.  Sniff will be having a few extra treats and maybe an extra portion
 of his soft foodies.  He loves soft foodies way too much.  Also some extra brushing
 and playtime.  For Sniff Sniff this is heaven.  He can play all day long.

As for Arvid, I treated him to dinner at our favorite place in Miami Beach.  Monty's.
Not a fancy place, but it has a great seafood bar, awesome views and as he said it's just our 
place.  Somethings and some places are best to go on our own and this is one of them.


Arvid and I have gone through quite some so trying times in our years together, but 
nothing compares to what we have gone through since Brutus and Shadow died. I am still
 stuck in my grief period.  It has taken a toll on me and I am trying very much to move on.


Good morning world.  Today is going to be a good day.  It is after all April 23rd.
  Birthday for Sniffer and Arvid.  Date night at the Dine -In-Theater for us.


Arvid Hvidsten, I loved you yesterday, love you still, always have, 
always will.  I love you.  I am at rest with you.  I have come home. 
Together we had Brutus, Shadow and now Sniff...

~Nadiya~

Apr 22, 2016

Life Goes On...

Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you.
Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year...

Arvid and I have been talking about taking Sniff Sniff for a drive for a long time. 
Yesterday we finally found the time to do so. We had planned to take him 
right after breakfast, but Sniff had fallen asleep on the sunbed so I
 decided to let him sleep, and do it in the afternoon. 

Afternoon came and once again he was on the sunbed. He does not go there in 
his own.  I carry him to it, but now he stays there rather than jump off like 
he usually did.  We're happy about that.  It's not empty all the time


Sniff is not easy. He will be needing quite a few of these rides before he will be 
better prepared for the plane trip to Chicago.  Brutus as everyone knows was a traveler. 
 We had no problems jetting him around from place to place. He was well behaved,
 and never made a sound. How I miss that kitty. How I miss my Brutus.

When Brutus died we were starting to wonder how Shadow would do on a plane trip.
  Shadow was fearless, but also restless. Not sure if he would have been easy on a 7 hour flight.
 I want to think that he would have been, but now of course we will never know.


What we do know is that Sniff will not be easy.  On the ride yesterday he was restless.
 He turned and turned all over in the carrier.  At some point he was under the padding, he cried 
and he did some more tumbling around in the carrier.  He was not easy to get into
 the carrier.  He cried again. He fought and he just won't get in.  It was a struggle


This being the case we will have to take him on several more rides to get him accustomed
 to being in the carrier.  Yesterday's trip was short. Just a 45 minute ride.  We cruised 
the beach area.  Always enjoyable and educational.  Lots of new developments
 coming along on the beach area.  Being Realtors means also being informed.

Arvid wants to go and listen to music tonight.  Not sure I am in the mood, but I will try
to overcome this sadness that has taken over this last two weeks. It comes and goes
 and I try to fight it but I'm not winning.  This grief is right now stronger than I am.

 I'm just sad and I know I have to snap out of it. I really know I can't go in this way. 
I just don't seem to know how to do it right now. Weekend is already on us. As always
 Arvid is making plans and I also have a few of y own.  Let's see what happens.


Here is South Florida the weather is beautiful. Breezy. Warm with "cooler" 
temperatures in the mornings. Perfect.  Mornings as you know is my favorite 
time of the day. Coffee.  Quiet.  Boats.  Waterways and Sniffer. 

Yes I love my mornings and yes, I am missing my mornings, my evenings, 
my nights my every moment with my Brutus.  Sniffer is a good
happy kitty and we are grateful to have him in our lives.

It's Friday.  Time for me to cheer up and make room for some fun and outings with Arvid.  
Currently it looks like rain is coming, but you never know with the weather here.  To all of us 
a little bit of advise do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.


Dream as if you will live forever; Live as if you will die today.  The past is behind,
 learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it...

~Nadiya~

Apr 21, 2016

Moments...

Life is like a camera, focus on what's important, capture the good times, 
develop from the negatives, and if things don't work out, take another shot...

As I mentioned before, I love going to the movies.  A must on my list is this one called 
Keanu.  The main character is a kitty cat.  Now how can I NOT go and see it?


Everyone who knows me, knows that there is nothing I like better than taking
 pictures.  No matter where we go, what we do when I come home I have
 hundreds of pictures in my phone.  I'm talking just for a little outing.  


When we go on vacation, I probably have thousands of pictures.  Yes, more than I need, 
but I enjoy doing it and so what if I have to delete most of them later on?  Keeps me 
happy, occupied and who know maybe one day I might get that perfect one.


I see possibilities and potential in just about everything.  I love taking pictures of food.
Drinks.  Bottles any and everything.  Arvid sometimes thinks I'm strange.  Does
 not bother me one bit.  I am who I am and and I'm very happy with me.


I have thousands and thousands of pictures of my Brutus.  For that I am happy. 
 Now it's all I have left.  Pictures and memories of my baby.  I miss his so much.  

As for Shadow, I also have quite a lot of pictures even though we had him for less 
than 4 months.  Yesterday and today i am having flashbacks.  I hear a little
kitty struggling to get out, and I could not help my little Shadow.


Sniffer is now learning what it is like to live with a camera lover.

Today i learnt something new.  For those of you using Snapchat this is probably 
old news, but my niece Reshma always keeps me updated.  I asked her if it was possible 
to post an image/picture on Snapchat that was taken let's say a day ago.  

Well what you know she said it was possible.  Seems like there is another App that uploads
 pictures to Snapchat whenever one wishes.  One can then do whatever fixing to the 
picture before posting it on Snapchat.  Pretty interesting,  Now everything can
 be altered.  I guess I'm a little slow with all this "cool" technology. She's 
still trying to teach me a few other things, but I'm a slow learner.


Hope your day has been good.  I have had better days and for sure worse.
Remember if you have nothing in life, but a good friend (Anna), then you're rich.

The past is a place of reference, not residence...

~Nadiya~