Oct 24, 2014

Back Home....

I have too many flaws to be perfect, but I have too many blessings to be ungrateful...

3:40 pm Thursday afternoon.  I couldn't be more on edge even f I tried.  Since leaving Brutus at
 the vet this morning, I have tried to stay busy, but my thoughts always come back to him.
By 2:30 I kept looking at the phone every second willing it to ring and hear that all went 
well with his surgery and that he is now awake and we can soon pick him up.


As you can imagine we are still waiting for the call.  Now I am a nervous wreck. I am my
 worst enemy sometimes.  You see I have a VERY vivid imagination.  I don't think any-
one will even come close to picturing what is going through my mind.  Surgery was 
supposed to only last an hour.  It's now been over 3 hours.  I want my Brutus home.


4:15 pm Thursday.  Can't wait any longer.  Staring at the phone is just not going to do it for me.
Gave in  and called the vet's office even though they told me to wait until I heard from them.
Brutus is  in recovery.  He is still not awake, but it's over and he is going to be OK.
 I mean he has to.  Just sitting and waiting to go and bring him home.  Long wait.

It's now Friday morning little after 10 am.  We brought Brutus home last night by 9pm.
He was so happy to be home that even with his collar and bandage he was hobbling along
all over the place.  It was as if he was in a race of some sort to check everything out.


Arvid and I so far try to carry him around everywhere.  Yes! we spoil him and
we love to do so. Brutus came home with lots of pain killers and antibiotics which I
have to give to him twice a day.  Twice a day for each.  He's not happy and I'm not thrilled.

So far it has been OK. He slept quietly until 1:30 an at which time I woke up with him
to make sure he does not jump or do anything to hurt himself.  We were awake until 5:45am
at which time I gave him his first dosage of pain killers for the day.  He fell asleep and so did I.
We slept until 8am and then it was time for the antibiotics.  Took some time to give to him.


Finally he is quiet again.  Meaning he is resting and sound asleep.  For now I took his collar
off in hope he will rest better.  Can't tell you how happy we are to have him home again.
Our home is not home without Brutus.  It's just a quiet place.  He completes it and us.


Good day to all of you.  The sun may not be shining right now,but in our world
 at least for now all is good again.  I'm grateful for so many things.
I wake up every morning literally with a smile on my face,
grateful for another day I never thought I'd see.

Choosing to be positive and having a grateful
 attitude is going to determine how you're going to live your life...

~Nadiya~

Oct 23, 2014

Vet Time Again....

Life was easier when you stopped caring, 
when you stopped expecting things to get better...


Can't sleep.  Stressed!  In a few hours we will be dropping Brutus off at the vet.  He will be
staying there for most of the day and hopefully we will be picking him up this afternoon. Brutus
 once again is going to have his paw cut open in hope to see what is going on.  The paw has
 taken a life of it's own again and aside from the swelling there is a huge tumor
 like protrusion sticking out.  Seems full of something but what we don't
 know as yet.  Hopefully we will soon. It is now 6am and Brutus
 and I are awake.  He senses that something is going on.


Last night he was so affectionate again.  Just like in Chicago, he took my place on the
 recliner.  Brutus and Arvid were watching TV in comfort while I was sitting on
the floor. I don't mind the floor for a while even if it's a little hard


10:55am.  We dropped Brutus off at the vet.  I left a part of me there and I will not be OK
 until I hear that he has woken up from surgery. I did not help that we were asked
 to sign a consent to do CPR in worst case scenario.  It's quiet at home.
Now we wait.  All I know is that it is going to be a long day.
  Good thing we have lots to do to keep us busy.


I know that there is no use getting all worked up, but I am human after all, and that's what
 we do we worry even though we know it will not make things any better.  As someone
said, happiness is a choice. You can choose to be happy. There's going to be stress
 in life, but it's your choice whether you let it affect you or not.
That said, I will can't stop worrying until I know he's OK
 and out of surgery and back home with us.

Raining and raining here.  Stay dry and hope your day is a good one. I will try to
do my best to always turn a negative situation into a positive one.

In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, 
to plow your anger and your energy into something positive...


~Nadiya~

Oct 22, 2014

Stressful Days Are Here Again...

You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life...

Why is it that every time you think things are going well something happens and 
disrupts that wellness?  I know that in life you can always expect the 
unexpected and seems that this will always be the case for us.  

Brutus is our baby and as far as I am concerned he takes priority over everything else.  Right now
 it is back to dealing with his paw.  It is swollen and it jut looks awful. Yesterday we took him
 to the vet.  Actually I took him all by myself because Arvid had a few chores to do at the 
same time.  No big deal, but when we go together Brutus hardly cries.  



Yesterday he cried from the minute I walked out of the door and never stopped.  Usually when
 we are together I hold him and Arvid will drive and we both take turns talking to him and 
then once there Arvid will carry him all the time.  Yesterday it was just me and he 
was mad as hell. So mad that from the minute the doctor walked into the room 
Brutus never stopped hissing.  This is not his usual behaviour.

When it comes to Brutus, my emotions take over.  It's not as if I forget what is the right thing to do;
it's just that every decision we make is so much more difficult because it's being made with
 the heart and not necessary by the brain.  It is the right decision, but the tears never stop.


As everyone knows, a pet brings a special kind of joy into our lives.  Unconditional love,
companionship and pure happiness.  When your pet is healthy then all is fine in your world,
but if like us you have a pet with some medical issues then your life can be thrown
 into constant turmoil.  That is how ours is.  Brutus has an unknown condition
 and all we can do is react when things go wrong.  For the last 2 years
 it has been going more wrong than right.
 

Even though we have spent approximately $10,000 trying to treat his paw, we
are still clueless as to why this is going on.  We look at Brutus and it breaks our heart.

We would do anything to make him better..anything.  Just don't know what
needs to be done.  In the meantime whatever the doctor recommends, we will try.


His nose is always pink when he is scared.  Then my heart breaks even more for him.
To all a good day.  Someone said, "The soul is renewed through tough times"
Let's hope they knew what they were talking about.


Life is at its best when everything has fallen out of place,
 and you decide that you're going to fight to get them right,
 not when everything is going your way and everyone is praising you...

~Nadiya~

Oct 21, 2014

Feeling Happy...

There is nothing like staying at home for real comfort...


So happy we will not be going to Mexico as planned.  Don't get me wrong we both enjoy our
 time there, but it has been too much on the move for us, and when we woke up yesterday
 morning the first thing we did was watch the news and weather report.  Well seems like
 it will be raining all  the time we were supposed to be in Mexico.  Arvid looks at
me and asks me, "what shall we do?"  I say, "let's not go."


I was really not up to it anyway.  Very concerned about Brutus.  Yes again his paw has
taken a life of its own.  Swelling up and the problem begins all again.  I have 
been too stressed about this trip and I think Arvid sensed it also.

I can't remember the time I was so happy to not be going anywhere.  Just being at
home with Arvid and Brutus.  Taking care of Brutus' needs and making
sure his paw gets the treatment he needs.


Not sure what will be the next step for him but we know that we will be trying everything in order
 to make him better.  Brutus brings joy and happiness into our lives. The thought of him
 hurting is more than I can handle and for that I will give up travelling if necessary. The
way I feel now, I do not wish to ever be away from him for too long a period of time.


The funniest thing is when I told my parents and sisters we were not going to Mexico
they were all so happy for us.  The said we needed to relax more and be home
more.  My mom says our life is too hectic and we need to slow down.
Right now I will definitely agree with her.  We need to slow down!!


Yes we are home with Brutus.  Right where we should be.  All is good,
and we are happy.  Hectic, raining but home together.

Hope your day is going good so far.  Molly all is good.
 We are home and Arvid will call everyone on Sunday as usual.  Hugs from us.

The best things in life are not only free, but the line is shorter.

~Nadiya~

Oct 20, 2014

Monday Morning....

Waking up this morning, I smile.  24 brand new hours are before me.
I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion...

Travelling is exciting, but at the same time very exhausting.  Right now if someone should 
ask me I would have to say that I never want to travel again.  I know it will pass, but
 I am so very tired and soon we will be going away again. I don't like leaving 
Brutus this much, especially when his paw is not looking good.


Our life is pretty hectic and I think it is catching up with me.  I must admit that I prefer
 to be home than live out of a suitcase and go from hotel to hotel. I am also starting to
dislike very much the unpacking that comes afterwards, guess today I'm tired.

We all have our work and then some more,  No exception here, but somehow it
seems that my housework never ends.  The loads and loads of laundry and
then all the folding that follows; takes up quite a bit of my day.

Brutus was so excited to see us that he could not get enough of us.  He snuggled as close
 as he could get to Arvid and I.  Kept us warm all night long. When we arrived he ran
 to his mat and just threw himself down so that we could brush him. Arvid,
not one to go down on his knees does it all the time for Brutus.


Seems like our days at home are always hectic.  We both have tons of things to take care
of before we have to leave again.  Sometimes i wonder what it is like to have a quiet
life, but then i remember how easily bored I get and stop wondering.

Good morning everyone.


Greetings from Fort Lauderdale where the sun is shining and the  day is
looking promising and full of possibilities.  And who knows
 maybe we be home for a while now.  YAY!!!

Start everyday with a new hope, leave bad memories behind
and have faith for a better tomorrow...

~Nadiya~

Oct 19, 2014

Fake People...

Some people are REAL. Some people are GOOD. 
Some people are FAKE. And some people are REAL GOOD at being FAKE.
Fake people have an image to maintain. Real people just don't care... 

If there is one thing I really cannot tolerate is fake people.  Yes fake people.  People who 
say one thing, but then turn around and do a completely different thing.  People who
show one face to the public and then in their private lives are completely different.


We all know someone like this.  Be it a family member, a friend or an acquaintance. 
I think that of all qualities in a person this one really pisses me off the most.  At 
least right now that is the way I feel.  Why is it that some pretend to like a 
person, but in reality they are seeting with rage,
 envy or just hatred towards that person.

I see this so very often that I just wonder if there is something really wrong with these 
people.  Why can't a person just be themselves without having to put on an 
act for the world to see?  As far as I am concerned, I like you better
when you are you and not when you pretend to be someone you aren't.


Why is it that some pretend to be this really good person, almost a saint when in reality 
you rally hate everyone or are just too dammed envious of everything and of everyone.  
Too many people portray this big smile and this happy, loving attitude towards 
others when in reality they hate that person.  Why?  If I say I like you then 
I do or at least I am trying really hard to like you.  If I say I am happy
 about your accomplishments then rest assured I definitely am.

For many the words just slide out of their mouths.  So easy to say this and that, 
but never really meaning it.  Arvid is always telling me that I should
try and curb my words.  he says that I don't always have to speak what's 
on my mind.  I look at him and I say "why not"?  


Agreeing with someone even if you may sometimes disagree is
not the same as pretending to like someone when you actually
don't.  I would much rather have a person be honest and open with 
me rather than have them pretend to like me.  Fake people!
Horrible and the worst kind!!!


Remember whatever you do, do sincerely otherwise don't do it just because you want
 someone to like you, or you want to be in with the popular crowd. Not worth
it and in the end you may be the one who ends up losing...
 Also remember that Life is full of fake people, 
before you decide to judge them, make sure
 you are not one of them.

Good morning everyone.  Good to back home where it is real.


Some people think that the truth can be hidden with a little cover-up and decoration. 
But as time goes by, what is true is revealed, and what is fake fades away...

~Nadiya~

Oct 18, 2014

And So It Ends..

And then I realized that Adventures are the best way to learn...

Our road trip has come to an end.  We have had a very good time, but like always,
 we are happy to be going home to Brutus.  No matter how good a time 
we are having he is always in our thoughts and in our hearts.  


I have had quite a lot of time to do some things on my own and I did enjoy it a lot.  I have 
walked and walked so much, I believe that I have covered every part of the Las Vegas Strip.
  Both Arvid and I are quite tired of eating out so it will be nice to be back home and 
have home cooked meals again.  Strange how it's the little things we miss a lot.

The last 4 days Arvid was busy in meetings so that gave me lots of "free" time.
We would meet for lunch and for gathering in the evenings with friends.


On our last night we went to see John Fogerty in concert.  As usual he never disappoints.  
We have been lucky to see him once a year.  One of our favorites of all times.


Our road trip started in Dallas.  Then it took us through Arizona to the Grand Canyon 
and lastly to Las Vegas, Nevada.  To all I would highly recommend exploring
more of this great country of ours.  The journey has been amazing,
but now we are both ready to head back home to our Brutus.


Going home and spending time with loved ones keeps you grounded...

~Nadiya~

Oct 17, 2014

Las Vegas Time...

Retirement is like a long vacation in Las Vegas. The goal is to enjoy it the fullest, 
but not so fully that you run out of money...

Today is our last day in Las Vegas.  We have been here since Sunday and I have to say that I 
have walked every part of the the Strip.  So far it has been a really good time, but we will
 sure be happy also to be going back home.  I really miss Brutus and we really are tired
 of eating out.  Neither Arvid nor I are crazy about eating out for so many days and the
 worst is that we both HATE to eat breakfast out.  For us breakfast is best at home. 


These last three day I have had most of the day to myself and to do whatever it is I want, 
while Arvid is busy with his trading.  He is in his element and we both are having fun 
doing exactly what we want.  Yesterday I visited the hard Rock Cafe, The Coca
Cola Shop, the M&M's factory and the Mandalay Bay hotel and Casino.


No matter where you go there are hundreds of people, but I was very surprised when I saw 
twice the amount of people in the M&M's shop.  Hundreds of people buying M&M's and 
all kinds of merchandise.  Got me all caught up in the moment as well, so had 
to make a few purchases as well.  Did not want to feel left out.


As Arvid spends the days in his trade meetings, I took the bus yesterday and toured the
 entire Strip, again.  There is just so much to see and do.  I also walked for hours these 
last few days.  Best way to see everything.  Being on my own I was able to linger 
for as long as I wanted and wherever I wanted.  Was good to not have to rush.
I was able to see everything I wanted and at my own pace.  Very relaxing.


Today will visit the Forum Shops, a little indoor exploring today.  Last night we
were entertained Jimmy Buffet style.  Music, girls dancing was fun.

I'm missing Brutus so really looking forward to tomorrow when we will be home with him.
 Wendy his pet sitter sends us a picture everyday.  Make me miss him more.

Yesterday I also visited The Shark Reef at the Mandalay Bay.  The most impressive
creature there was the Komodo Dragon, and when in Vegas you just
have to try the Buffet.   Food galore.  We did it enough said.


Well my day begins.  Last day so have to make the most of it.
Greeting to all from Sin City, Las Vegas.  You know what they say:
Everything and anything you want to do, you can do in Las Vegas.

I love Las Vegas. I like that Las Vegas has everything. 
Everything and anything you want to do, you can do in Las Vegas..

~Nadiya~

Oct 16, 2014

Amazing Time...

Something amazing happens when you're in love and don't give
 a damn about what day it is anymore..

We made it to the Grand Canyon and seeing it was even more impressive than I thought 
it would be.  Arvid's comment to all that awesomeness was, "it was OK."  Made
me wonder what really makes an impression on him.  To anyone who asks,
I would always say, "whatever Arvid says, just ignore,"  


For those who have been to the Grand Canyon, then like me you must have been
 in awe of this sight.   For those who have not, all I can say is put it on your bucket list.


Sometimes we all get so caught up in our own problems that 
we forget how amazing the world is.


We also made it to Hoover Dam.  Another very impressive sight.


I was pretty amazed with Hoover Dam.


Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. 
But if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen.







As the days go by, interesting things are happening.  Last night I once again 
had the pleasure of witnessing Arvid in action.  We went to something called "Cowboy
Trading"  Let's just say that Arvid was involved in very trade that took place.  He is a TRADER.
Soon we will be going to Kentucky to chase storms.  Yep!  Arvid traded for a week of storm chasing. 


We had lunch with friends from Fort Lauderdale and evening drinks with them. All together the 
days are going by too fast.  While Arvid trades in the  daytime, I keep myself busy and 
entertained by doing some fun stuff.  I'm Happy.  He's happy.  We meet for lunch and
 have the evenings together to do more fun stuff.  Las Vegas..a MUST visit place!!!

Good morning everyone.  I am ready to explore something new again today.


I'm having the time of my life figuring out this next move...

~Nadiya~

Oct 15, 2014

Las Vegas At Night...

Las Vegas looks the way you’d imagine heaven must look at night....

What a beautiful sight at night.   The Las Vegas nightlife truly is unrivaled.
And when the stars come out, so does everybody else.


All over the country, when people are hungry at three in the morning, they go to Denny's. 
But in Las Vegas, when people are hungry at three in the morning, they go to... um, Denny's? 
Yup! A massive, metal-enshrouded Denny's on Fremont where, in addition to the usual 
Moons Over My Hammy-type eats, there's a full bar and, on the off chance you
 got lucky at one of the spots above, a wedding chapel.


Meet the High Roller Ferris Wheel, the world's tallest observation wheel.
The High Roller is 9 ft (2.7 m) taller than the 541-foot (165 m) Singapore Flyer,
 which held the record for the world's tallest observation wheel from its opening in
 2008 until High Roller opened to the public on March 31, 2014.


As you can see Las Vegas is a 24 hour city.  The entertainment never stops, and for 
a few days we will be enjoying some of this non stop action. People watching
 is one of my favorite hobbies.  So far I have not been disappointed.



To all a good day.  Here in Vegas it is always weekend, and as someone said:
A weekend in Vegas without gambling and drinking is just like being a born-again Christian.



What happens here, stays here.

~Nadiya~