Feb 7, 2016

Sunday...

Baby it's cold outside...

Sunday morning and it is a chilly one.  Seems like we are in for another brief cold front.
Sadly this means that most are in for some pretty heavy snowstorm coming their way.
Most meaning my family and many of our friends here in the USA.


In both Vermont and Pennsylvania where 2 of my sisters live, the snow had started to melt.
Now with the new snowstorm coming it's going to be shovelling and shovelling again for them.

On Friday we tried to not be home too much.  Arvid knew I was sad, so he
and I went out to lunch and spent quite a bit of time just doing "chores" here and there.


We also had my sister and husband visiting.  That was really very good.  As always time
 spent with family is good.  Like I said short visits can be very good.  Soon Victoria and
 Michael will visit so we will have more family also. February is a good month.


Lilly Vade, the youngest in our family.  She does everything and anything and is never
afraid.  She has 2 older brothers and what they never did or want to do she does. When I
 see a picture of her my heart melts.  I miss her so very much and I just wish she was closer.


Happy Sunday everyone.  It's a cold one.
 Enjoy the Super Bowl and GO PANTHERS!!!


This is your Sunday reminder that you can handle whatever this week throws at you.


Life is like making tea! Boil your ego, Evaporate your worries, Dilute your sorrows, 
Filter your mistakes and get taste of Happiness.  Have a Great Sunday!...

~Nadiya~

Feb 5, 2016

Februrary 5th...

When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses..

Every year around this time my sister and her husband visit Florida. Though for just a 
few days, we always try to do something with them.  For some reason Arvid keeps 
telling me to ask them if they would like the 4 of us to go to our "Cuban" spot
for lunch.  Arvid is now a fan of one of the meals there and my sister, and
husband also like it there.  Their time is limited so I tell Arvid "we'll see".

Unlike most of us these days whose every move can be tracked via social network, my sister
 never posts a thing. No one ever knows where they are. Even when she, and her family
 went to Australia, Thailand, Malaysia, Greece just to mention a few.  No one knew.


 She's very private.  The entire family is. My niece and nephew, (their 2 kids) in there 20's
 are also on FB and I never hear or see a word about them.  Truth same goes for most
of my nieces and nephews.  The only time I "see" them around is if someone tags
them to a post. Something I really admire, and am striving for. More and more.
 Arvid says we should protect our privacy at all costs.  Can't disagree.

That being said we just hope to have them over one day for lunch and hopefully have a few
 hours with them.  When they visit their visits are fairly short.  Last night they were here,
 and even though the visit was short we had a good time.  Sometimes short visits
are the best as well.  We enjoy quality time and don't just sit killing time.


Today makes 3 months since our Brutus died.   Three months I have been missing 
him,  and wondering why why did he die. I still have no answer to that and
 my heart is just not ready to let go. I know it's what I have to do. What
I will  do one day, but every time I try it's not just not happening.
How can I let go of Brutus?  He was our baby. My baby.

When I stop and think of Brutus (too often) I just can't let go of him. I will never,
 never understand why he died. That is the heartache I live with everyday.
 I miss him. I ache for him and my heart silently cries out for him.  


Mama misses you Brutus.  The days I stay busy, but then suddenly you come into
my thoughts, and grief takes over.  As dada says you were more human that kitty. He
also says there will never be another kitty like you.  We both know that.

I can go crazy thinking about this and never will be satisfied with the answer.  Best will be
 as Arvid and everyone says.  Just let go.  Yesterday Arvid said to me, "you have to let
our boysie rest in peace now."  Broke my heart because at that moment I also saw the grief,
 and tears in his eyes.  Yes, Arvid misses Brutus also, but deals with it better than I do.

Each  night I put my head to my pillow I try to tell myself that I am strong
because I have gone one more day without you.  Mama misses you Brutus...

~Nadiya~

Feb 4, 2016

13 Weeks Today...

Happy thoughts.  Thursday is on.  Thursday is my favorite day to plan 
how I'm going to get out of the plans I already made for the weekend... 

Life goes on and we move forward.  Nothing else one can do about that. We have a good life,
 and even though part of our life is missing we still have so much to be grateful for.


Arvid love to be a part of everything that goes on in the building.  No he does not want
 to be a board member or anything of the sort, but he sure likes to observe and stay
abreast of all situations.  He even recognizes the footsteps of our neighbor.


Today is another very beautiful day.  Little on the windy side, but nonetheless warm.
Arvid and I have quite many things to do and in the mix of everything is Shadow.
He wants to be a part of EVERYTHING.  Just like Brutus was.

 Brutus always something there that reminds me of you.  Today is 13 weeks Brutus died.
 Everyday my heart aches for him.  In the meantime, Shadow is growing and growing.  We
 constantly have to be on the lookout for him.  You never know when he will "strike"

Hope so far everyone has had a good day.  Ours has been good with a few
chores here and there.  Looking forward to a little company tonight.


Happy Thursday all.  We day it's Friday Eve.

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
When he died, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with him...

~Nadiya~

Feb 3, 2016

Half Way Into The Week...

Life goes on, so people move on.  But you can't move
 on if you're not willing to say goodbye...

Time is sure flying.  Already halfway into the week.  Hope that everyone so far has been
 having a pretty good one.  February is the month when family and friends visit Florida to get
 away from the cold climates.  Weather wise I am sure everyone will be happy.  Nice and warm.

Once again yesterday Arvid and I took a walk to the beach.  it was peaceful and always relaxing.
It is becoming one of my favorite things to do with Arvid.  Just the two f us.  Just yesterday
 Arvid looked at his calendar for February and said to me, it is getting filled up."


For about an hour he spent filling up his calendar with things to do and games to watch.
He said, "well just about every day I have games to watch."  He was happy and beaming.

With Brutus we never had to warn anyone to be on the lookout.  Now with Shadow, we
have to caution everyone to please be careful.  Shadow loves to nibble at shoes, toes,clothes
every and anything he finds.  The last people visiting had some tense moments.


Shadow is NOT a bad boy.  He is just super charged.  Always excitable and always ready
 to pay.  If you should so much as move one of his toys, he thinks you want to play.  He has
 so much energy that 2 of his mice are now headless, and yes he still loves to chase them.


When we are eating lunch or toes are not safe.  We come to think of it are always on the
lookout for him.  We have come really close to crushing him.  He's so fast that before
 you know it he's under your feet.  Yesterday he jumped straight into the washer and
then chased a mouse all the way under the jukebox.  He's getting bigger so it's a bit
more difficult for him to get under the jukebox, but he still wiggles in.


It's a breezy Wednesday here in Fort Lauderdale.  The sun is out and
w are up and about ready to tackle the new day.  Happy Wednesday all.

Happy Wednesday.  Be happy with who you are and what you do, and you can do anything
 you want.  Yesterday ended last night a friendly reminder that today is another day...

~Nadiya~

Feb 2, 2016

Tuesday...

Sometimes we don't need explanations.   It is what it is...

When I buy groceries I now have a separate list also for Shadow.  Unlike Brutus, 
he eats people food.  So yesterday as I did some of the shopping I got him his boneless 
chicken breasts, organic carrots and yes, he still gets some canned foods.


Brutus did not eat people food, only exception was his Norwegian shrimp.  
That he loved.   He also liked his fruit and his dry food.  How I miss my Brutus.

Shadow is a hurricane in a storm.  Never in one place for long and always tracking us.
He plays and plays and we both have fun together.  Then suddenly he collapses and snoozes off.

Warm weather is here and it seems like it will stay.  Happy for that we are.  
Today it is mainly a working at home kind of day for me.  


Shadow follows me everywhere.  How strange, because Brutus who I adored and still
do followed Arvid around like a puppy dog.  Brutus was Arvid's shadow.  Now Shadow
 has become my shadow.  Do you think he senses that I am heartbroken?


To everyone a good day.  Time for a coffee break and then time to make lunch.
Today is called for lasagna for Arvid and Alaskan Snow crab for me.  Everyday I 
make 2 different meals.  It has been this way for over 15 years now.  

A great relationship isn't when a perfect couple come together,
but when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differences...

~Nadiya~

Feb 1, 2016

Minions Kinda Day....

Rainy days should be spent at home with a cup of tea and a good book...

Arvid woke up saying, "can't believe January is already done."  Yes, it went by
fast.  Today is 88 days since Brutus died and 83 days since Shadow has been with us.


Woke up to a warm start of the day.  Very nice indeed, but at the same time it is dark and wet
 outside.  Not so nice, but that should also clear up by the end of the day.  Definitely not a beach day.


Even though it is wet and gloomy outside, the water aerobic class by the pool is still in session.
  The fact that there is only the instructor and one "pupil" is irrelevant.  The show goes on.


Our Sunday was even more special in company of a good friend.  Our day so far has 
been pretty OK.  Rain or no rain we still have to do our running around.  Rain is 
another good opportunity to get some cool pictures.  While Arvid and I went to a 
friends place to check on something, I found time to get a few pictures.  


Hello rainy Monday. 
 Soon lunch time and it is still raining..

It's the start of a new week, which means it's time to shake off your weekend, 
take a deep breath and try to think positive, energizing thoughts...

~Nadiya~

Jan 31, 2016

Sunday..Funday

It's a beautiful day, don't let it get away.  Life is so much 
more brighter when we focus on what really matters...

Yesterday I had some time again at the beach.  This time I went to Fort Lauderdale Beach 
while Arvid watched TV.  Truth is I can't sit and watch as much soccer or any kind of 
TV that long.  My powers of concentration is just not as good as his is when it 
comes to sitting still and staring at a TV screen among other things.


It was a perfect time.  The beach was very quiet and I had it all to myself.  The splashing 
of the  waves the birds and the swaying of the palm trees was indeed very relaxing. There 
it was just me and my thought again.  Loved it and can't wait for the next time.


Come evening Arvid went to listen to music with a friend.  I was really not in the mood 
so I decided to go to the movies instead, and let the boys have a few drinks on their
 own and some "boys" time.  I love the movies and going on my own does
not bother me one bit. Sometimes I really actually enjoy it even more. 

 Before the movies I dropped Arvid off to his location and I had one more opportunity to
 cruise the beach.  This time at night.  Was also fairly on the quiet side, but again beautiful.


The day started out beautiful.  Boats cruising along and we have a good view.
No complaints here about that.  Shadow slept with us a little this morning.  Felt good.
He purrs like an engine.  Very cute.  This is the first time he slept so close to us.


Touching us.  Been missing that very much because Brutus was know for being close to us.
 Very close, maybe Shadow will soon like it and do the same.  Can always hope.

To all a very good day.  Sunday's outing today is with a friend, and it's looking
like outdoor seating is what's called for.  Yes we are back to what the
Sunshine State should be.  Warm, sunny blue skies.  Perfect.

Happy Sunday to all of you.

Every second brings a fresh beginning, every hour holds a new promise, 
every night our dreams can bring hope, and every day is what you choose to make it...

~Nadiya~

Jan 30, 2016

Saturday...

Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.
I will do my best.. that's all I can promise...

Our day started our pretty cold.  Good thing though it will warm up.


What do you think of this BMW?  I can see me driving it...


Checked out some pretty cool outdoor furniture as well.  For those with a
large outdoor space, this will definitely spiff up your place.


As we were coming out of the restaurant yesterday, the parking lot was full 
of ducks and tons of birds.  A passerby said to me, "you don't need to go to the Everglades
 to see anything.  You see it all right here in the parking lot."  Had to make Arvid stop 
so I could get pictures.  How cool was that?  Not everyone was happy of course.

Not exactly sure what we will be doing today.  Saturdays i don't cook.  Pizza day.
Sundays I don't cook either.  It's our day out.  Just the two of us, but tomorrow 
we make an exception.  We take a very good friend out with us for dinner.


During breakfast Arvid and I talked about Brutus.  He told me that I need to move on.
I know I do.  I know I do.  I asked him if he has moved on.  He said he's working on it, but
that I need to understand that moving on does not mean he will ever forget Brutus.  
He said for him it means holding on to his sanity, said I need to do the same.


To all a very good day.  In between the soccer game, Arvid does some housework
while Shadow looks on.  Shadow by the way is not afraid of the vacuum cleaner. 

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at 
the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow"....

~Nadiya~

Jan 29, 2016

Today....

Make some time for yourself today, to relax,
reflect and revive your spirit...

I love mornings.  If I could I would go and watch the sunrise at the beach everyday.
  We are close by after all.  Maybe will make more of an effort to do so.


Feeling the water and the sand between my toes is relaxing.  I have pace at that moment,
 and listening to the waves splash and the birds chirp is just a great way to start the day.


Keeping up with Shadow is not easy.  The kitty is very rambunctious.


It's Friday.  The start of the weekend. Let's see what it holds.

If you want to conquer the anxiety of life, live in the moment, live in the breath.
Happy Friday all.  I haven't been so excited about Friday since last Friday...

~Nadiya~

Jan 28, 2016

Rainy Day... AGAIN

Rainy days are perfect days to watch TV and cuddle.
Some people feel the rain others just get wet...

I may not have everything I want right now, but I sure am grateful for what I have right 
now, and I am not referring to material things.  More to what really matters, and 
the people in my life.  Many live only to brag about their lives.  All I want is 
something that will ever be granted ever again, yet even so what I have
 with Arvid is what keeps us strong and united.  For that i am grateful.


A few minutes after the above picture was taken, Brutus died.  A light in 
our lives was shut off.  Another spark entered our lives in the form of shadow.

I don't ever forget that though Brutus died life goes on.  At least I tell myself that quite often.
 For it is not fair to Arvid and Shadow to have someone moping around all the time.

The day has started out with rain showers and is kinda gloomy looking, but we work from
home so for us that's OK.  Tomorrow is another day and maybe we see the sunshine a little.
Many tourists at this time of the year in Florida.  Not the beach weather the expected.


February Arvid's daughter and boyfriend will also be visiting, and thank goodness that
the "worst" of this weather will have left.  No matter what coming from Norway or
 any other cold part of the world, Florida's weather is always perfect for them.


Shadows chicken and carrots are in the making.  I have already enjoyed my cafe,
so for me the day is already looking up.  I woke up.  I breathe.. I'm alive.

If you want the Rainbow you gotta put up with the Rain.
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday...


~Nadiya~