💔 In My Heart There Stirs A Quiet Pain 💔

 💔 Only from the heart can you touch the sky. 
 Somethings cannot be fixed. They can only be carried .  
Little by little we let go of loss but never of love 💔

I have wanted to come back home. Now I am

 home and the weirdest thing is that my thoughts are in 

Puerto Rico. I can’t stop thinking of my kitties. 

It’s breaking my heart to know that they are 

there waiting for me and I am not there. I hope one 

day this guilt I have will be less. I wanted to do 

something good, but now looking back I am 

wondering if I actually made it worse. 

I take some comfort in knowing that Mama, 

ShyGirl, Baby and my little Marbles will

 not get pregnant.  I feel good about that.

I hope they find food to eat and that they are

 doing good. I tell myself that they did it before I 

showed up so they will do not again. You (me)

tell yourself things so you can feel better 💔

I spend my days trying to stay busy. Going

 here and there, but every chance I get my mind 

wanders back to them and my heart breaks.  I

 tell myself it will get better. Time has a way.

I do really good during the day except for those times

 I see the time and then I remember.  Nights have not been

 the easiest.  It's quiet and most of the times Arvid watches car 

shows and such, which does not keep my interest.  Then I 

have so much time to think.  Not the best right now.

And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain💔...

~Nadiya~