I am awake early just wondering why it is that I can't get used as yet to this being home. I refer to it as the house and somehow that seems wrong. You have to accept whatever comes and the only important thing is that you meet it with courage and with the best that you have to give. Trying to do this....
|not a care...|
Arvid and Brutus are extremely happy here....it is just me with my doubts and hesitations that makes it impossible to accept this as home for now. I am sure with time and with everything in it's place all will be OK.....has to be. Happiness can exist only in acceptance.....
|grass is NOT!! for me..|
I never thought I would have such a difficult time adjusting to a house. For crying out loud, I was born in Guyana. We lived in a house and I loved being outdoors. Growing up we always lived in a house and I enjoyed helping my dad with the grass and trimming trees. When I got married for the first time, we owned a house in California. I loved it there.
|city girl at heart|
Things began to change when I had a house in Fort Myers. Started to not like it at all. Maybe because in Florida there are always snakes running around the yard. I hate snakes. For that reason I will say I do not like the outdoors. For me grass and all it involves is the outdoors. So we have a lawn man....but I still see the grass everyday and I am very careful where I step in case I see a snake. Saw a couple of frogs...nothing unusual but I DON"T like hopping creatures, crawling things, flying insects, nor ants and lizards.....these are just the usual things involved with owning a house and having a yard!!! Things I would gladly do without!!! Give me the city life and I am happy.
Maybe because we are still working overtime on the house and are always too exhausted I am seeing everything worse than it is.
|having a ball..|
We have fixed the inside up very beautifully. New tiles in the entire house, brand new furniture, ripped out the old bathrooms, new paint, new kitchen (not delivered as yet)....so I ask myself "what is the problem"? can't nail it down to anything specific...all I know is that I miss the city and miss being downtown and close to everything I like....hoping this is only temporary because I sure do not look forward to another move anytime soon....
until next time...