Nov 13, 2021

Saturday November 13th ~

 You will find that it is necessary to let things go;
 simply for the reason that they are heavy...

Yesterday we did one of the things I enjoy. I went to
 the Swap Shop and got all my favorite fruit πŸ₯₯ was 
a delicious time and I have enough for the next 
few days until we go again in a week or so.

Yesterday I had a hard time. Most of the day
 was good but then afternoon came, I looked at 
the time, and I thought of my PR kitties.

 It was the same time I used to go out every now
 and again in the afternoons to see and feed them.
  I’m having a hard time. The guilt is tearing me
 apart, but I know I'll  be OK one day. Not today.

Sniff keeps me grounded and focused πŸ’™ 
Arvid is being really understanding and has not 
said anything when he’s seen me cry.  Arvid has 
been good. Better than I thought.  I thought he 
would get impatient but he’s actually very patient
 right now πŸ–€ and for that i love him even more.

We’ve been around driving checking out 
places. We have been a little surprised to see so 
much flooding.  High tide, climate change 🀭
 it’s coming together as Arvid likes to say 😭

Yesterday as we were sitting out having a good 
meal, enjoying the view Arvid looks at me and 
says, “this does not feel like home right now.” 

 I have actually said the same thing several 
times since being back, but I know it’s 
because of the kitties I left behind in PR.

I will have bad moments this I know, but 
there will be many better ones and with time 
I will be OK , but it really hurts right now.
No matter what, mornings are beautiful.

Yesterday is now done with  today is a new day and 
will make it a good one. Some of us think holding 
on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go

The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself,
πŸ’” unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize 
that the situation is over, you cannot move forward...