Jan 6, 2015

Have Seen Better Days....

You may have seen better days, but you have also seen worse. You might not have all 
your wants, but you do have all your needs. You woke up with a few aches and pains,
 but you woke up. Your life may not be perfect, but it is good. And more good
 things are coming down the road as long as you keep moving forward....

I'm not one to let much get me down especially when it comes to my health and well being.  Most times I let everything take its course and try not to stress over things I cannot control. When I found out I had thyroid cancer, initially I was stunned, but that wore off fast and all I wanted was to move on and to do whatever came next.  After that I knew that whatever happened I was going to deal with it.  That worked fine.  The cancer was eradicated and like I always said, I'm one of the lucky ones.

Other than the cancer, I have had a horrible cough going on now for over a year.  Doctors said I had allergies.  I was given different medicines.  Worked for a little, but the cough came back.  Said I have acid reflux.  Am taking medicine, but the cough is still there.  On a daily basis I cope and deal with it.  Some days the cough is so violent my entire body is just worn out.  Exhausted..

Not sure what happened yesterday. Nothing different.  Coughed on and off most of the day.  Nothing different than most of my days for the last year plus, but while I was having lunch I felt this horrendous pain right in the middle of my chest.  It was one of the most horrible pains I have ever experienced.  Arvid was ready to take me to the hospital, but I knew what it was.  Bad case of acid reflux.  Just felt like I was having a heart attack, but I knew I wasn't.  The pain lasted a good 3 hours intensely.  By 10 pm I was still experiencing some of the pain but noting like it was.

Don't know how it happened but all of a sudden I just felt like crying.  Yes for a moment I felt sorry for myself.  Here I was, never sick in my entire life and all of a sudden in a span of 1 year many things have changed.  The cough is the worst thing.  It never stops and it wrecks havoc on my entire body.   Sometimes a little self pity is OK as long as it does not go on forever.  A little crying is also good because it cleanses out the body and relieves stress.  Yesterday it helped me and now today I am back feeling optimistic.  Still coughing, but come Thursday I will be going for additional testing to figure out more about what's going on.

I don't have it as bad as many, and I know I should not complain.  Most times I don't but somehow yesterday was just a little more than I was able to handle.  Brutus somehow knew something was wrong because he never left my side and he who usually sleeps on Arvid's lap found his way on mine.  Freaked me out because they say that animals sense when something is wrong.

To all a good day.  They say that worrying does not empty tomorrow
of its troubles. It empties today of its strength.

You can't start the next chapter in your life 
if you keep re reading the last one...