December 30th...

Sometimes life knocks you on your ass... get up, get up, get up!!!

 Happiness is not the absence of problems, it's the ability to deal with them...

I'm always awake early. Even earlier than usual. Most days I really try to stay in bed. 

Try to fall asleep again like Arvid but most days it does not work so I get up quietly and

 leave Arvid snoring softly in bed. As of late, Shadow has been getting up with me. 

He comes out into the kitchen and eats his soft foodies then he will stick around for a little

 and go back to sleep with Arvid. Maybe a little routine is taking place with the 3 of us.

I sit out in the balcony which at this hour is beautiful.  I see the palm trees sway and

 I see the boats passing by. Mornings are still beautiful. Not exactly how they

used to be, but nonetheless I enjoy them and look forward to them.

As of late as I had mentioned before, I have been telling myself I have to let go of Brutus. 

 Easier said than done, but I need to do it. For all our sakes I need to push through this hump

 that has me stuck. Stuck. Stuck. Not fair to Arvid. Not fair to Shadow nor to myself.

Arvid has been nothing but kindness. Planning outings, trips and all kinds of things for us.

 As he said the least I can do is take an interest in it.  And I will.  The calendar as he

 said for 2016 is already looking good. We have a few things already planned.

We take long walks in the afternoons.  The weather is beautiful and the scenery 

is always appealing and enjoyable.  As Arvid says, "this is why we live in Florida."

A couple of overnights in January, February and who knows how the rest will shape up.

  Arvid's  eldest daughter and boyfriend visit from February to March so we have

 something to look forward then as well.  One day at a time right now.

We both still prefer quiet times by ourself, but a little company for short periods

 is also good.  Not exactly sure what the day holds, but with Arvid I am never

 sure either. He is always making plans and before I know it we are heading 

somewhere.  Right now sounds OK to me. Very OK indeed.

Shadow is growing up fast. He does quite a lot of the things Brutus did.  We smile 

often, but also at the same time part of my heart is tearing apart.  It is now 

just Arvid, Shadow and I among the living.  Brutus is now a beautiful

 memory but my heart sure aches for more than a Memory.

Life. No one ever said it was a bed of roses. You take the good with the bad. 

And to be honest we do have a good life. We have each other and yes we do have

 many things to be grateful for. And yes I am always grateful for something.

Hello world.  It's another beautiful day here in Fort Lauderdale.
Wishing you all the same wherever you may be.

Acknowledging the good that you already have in your life
 is the foundation for all abundance...

~Nadiya~