Feb 25, 2014

Hard To Say Goodbye....

It's time to say goodbye, but I think goodbyes are sad 
and I'd much rather say hello.
 Hello to a new adventure...

I don't know what's wrong with me!  I'm acting like a big sissy.  I'm grown up, but somehow
 I keep thinking, "mom and dad are gone" and all I want to do is cry.  Yes cry.  It's not like I 
will not see them again. But you know we have had them here in Florida close to two months
 and then comes time to say goodbye.

Goodbyes are not my thing.  I doubt it's anyone's thing.  But last night I was just sitting in bed 
and all I could think of is how much I am going to miss them.  This year they stayed back this 
long for me.  Because I was going to be in the hospital and now all of a sudden they are gone and
 I feel an emptiness.  Going to the house they stayed in will not be the same.  Usually I would go 
and moms aromas filled the air.  I miss her already and I miss my dad.  But she and I would do
 stuff all the time and now there is no one to go and have coffee with whenever I feel like it.

Since they came my fridge was always stocked with all sorts of my favorite foodies.  There is 
still some left.  Why is it so hard to say goodbye???  At least I know they are not that far from me, 
but still it's far. My mom and dad are getting older and I want to be able to spend so much more
 time close to them.  Yeah, as I write this my emotional state is in high alert.  Could be from the 
pain I am feeling or from the painkillers I have taken.  Whatever the reason, all I know is that 
I am sad.  I am missing them.  I am thinking of the next time we will see them.

My mom is my friend.  I can tell her anything and she always listens.  Sometimes we don't realize
 (us children) how harsh our words can be.  But she listens and she comforts and she's always there
 for us.  She and my dad are always there to give a helping hand.
We may not always agree but one thing is for sure, we know
that we have their unconditional love and support. 

Arvid knew I wanted to see them one more time so very early yesterday morning we went 
to the house to say goodbye.  It looked so empty, but at least I got to hug them and kiss 
goodbye before they left.  I know they want to get back home and that they have been away 
longer than they thought they would, but..  Anyway, I am grateful always for time with them.

A daughter may outgrow your lap,
but she never outgrows your heart..
A mom and dad's hug last long after they let go....