Dec 10, 2017

Relaxing Day ~

Make some time for yourself today,
 to relax, reflect and revive your spirit...

Winter looks bleak right now, but the sun is shining and the
 temperature is warming up.  What a difference a day makes.  

Still no snow here.  Happy for that. Once again we do not have snow tires.
My car still thinks it's in Florida.  We let that one slide.

My sister in Vermont has had the full blast of winter at their doorstep already,
and it is a beautiful sight.  First snowis so pretty, but then comes the rest.  Not so good.

Mala's scenery is much more beautiful that the one I am looking at right now.
I really wish I was with family at Christmas.  I miss them all.

Happy Sunday to everyone.  
A Sunday well spent brings a week of content.

Sunday is the perfect day to refuel your soul and to be
 grateful for each and everyone of your blessings...


Dec 9, 2017

Saturday ~

I have a lot to be thankful for.  
I am healthy, happy and I am loved...

Still not doing so great, but definitely getting better.  Almost Home survives 
without me!  Shock to my system, but I honestly knew it would. 

Tiffany is experienced in running hotels and with Arvid’s help 
everything (just about) is under control.  Taking another 
day off.  By Monday should be close to 100% better.

Another cold day here but not like yesterday.  More manageable.  
North Carolina has been having snow since yesterday.  My parents’
 home is looking like a winter wonderland.  Nina my sister in 
Florida says she is missing the weather in Pennsylvania. 

 She loves her changes in season, and has not gotten used to 
Florida’s weather as yet.  As winter progresses I’m sure she will.

The last 2 days it has been a little difficult for me to eat any solid food.
  Somehow it makes me cough.  Now I’m afraid to try anything solid.
 Have been gulping down yogurt smoothies, but now I think
 I am ready for real food again. Kinda hungry right now.

Saturday mornings belong to Arvid and his soccer time.  It relaxes him 
and gives him sometime just for him as well. We all need that.  

Sniff has already eaten, and is on his day bed ready for a nap. 
 Being home all day yesterday I was able to observe his patterns.  
He slept from 11am until 4pm and would have slept longer, but I woke
 him up.  Also he would have slept by 9am, but he was not sure why I was home
 so he kept hovering around me until he was worn out and fell asleep by 11.

Sniff is a talker.  When he wants something he will express it very fiercely. 
 Love that about him.  Among many other things.  Love his company,
 and knowing that he will be there when I come home. 

Yes I love our little Sniff.  Our Brutus will always be my baby. 
 Always, but today Sniff is here with us and we love him.  Life goes on
 and we may not aleya have what we want, but we sure have
 what we need, and for that I am grateful.  Always.

Today I am thankful...


Dec 8, 2017

Feeling Sick ~

Being sick is your body's way of saying you're way too awesome,
and you need to slow down, so everyone else can catch up...

I don't usually get sick, but when I do it gets really bad.  A simple cold
 becomes full blown pneumonia.  Which is what I have right now.  
I woke up on Wednesday morning and I knew it was bad.  
Could not talk at all.  I was just too painful.

A visit to the doctor, and a lot of antibiotics was what's called for.
Since taking over the hotel business I have not taken a single sick day, 
and it's been a year now, but this time it was just too much.

Today is my second full day off.  Feels strange to be home and give 
up control of my hotel to my property manager couple.  On the other
 hand with a little training from Arvid they are doing great.

I will try my best to relax and enjoy my day off.
Wishing everyone a good day and hope you're ready for 
the cold that's coming. My mom in North Carolina
 is having snow as are some friends in Texas among other places. 
 I'm guessing soon we will as well. Happy Friday all.

No matter how old I get, I always 
want my mom when I don't feel good...


Dec 7, 2017

One Of Those Days ~

This day promise yourself you will make someone smile
 before you go to sleep.  Good morning to you...

I love mornings because I never know what to expect as I drive to work.  
I wake up with Sniff.  We have coffee together and spend time bonding.  Best way
 to start my everyday.  Then I leave for work and the day just gets better. 

 Most days I see deers.  As mentioned before.  For me this never gets stale. 
 Not used to ever seeing them in Florida, so for us this is a definite treat.  
Just the other day I also spotted a new kitty in the area.  As he was 
walking away into the woods, I called him.  He turned around
 and started meowing.  I always have my camera on hand.  
Makes for capturing moments even more fun.

Arvid loves pineapple.  For him every meal is made better with it.  We go to this
 diner just about once every week.  Arvid orders the same thing with extra 
pineapple slices.  We also go to a burger joint quite often.  There you can add just
 about anything to your burger.  Yup.  He has pineapple slices on it as well.

Christmas is everywhere.  The lights, the Christmas music and scents makes
 me miss home.  Home where family is.  For Arvid this is not a good time
 of the year.  Says that he "hated" Christmas from the time he was
 a little boy.  I ask myself, "how is that even possible???"

I love Christmas, but right now I do not feel the Christmas spirit around me.
My friend Anna said something that has touched me deeply because it is so very true. 
 Anna said to me, "Grief never goes away, we just push it back in our hearts."

Anna is grieving right now for her mom.  Her mom died years ago, but the
 thing with grief is that it never gives you any warning.  It just shows up 
when you least expect it.  Both Anna and I know a lot about grief. 
 Together we have been each others support in difficult times, 
and we continue to be each others sounding board.

When grief hits you all you can do is wait it out.  It comes in waves and 
some  days those waves are so powerful that you almost find yourself drowning
 in them.  I believe the holidays don't really help much.  Makes you
 want more badly that you know you won't ever have again.

Remembering you is easy.  I do it everyday.  Missing you is the 
heartache that never goes away.  Mama misses you very much...


Dec 5, 2017

December 5th ~

Some memories are unforgettable, 
remaining ever vivid and heartwarming.

I remind myself that though I may not have everything I want, I do have 
enough to make me always grateful and to put a smile on my face.

When I think of Brutus, I always feel the tears rolling down my cheeks.  
It is still very difficult at times for us.  Last night both Arvid and
 I were looking at Sniff and saying what a good boy he is and 
how lucky and grateful we are to have him in our lives. 

 At the same time we could not help talking about Brutus.  I have a very, 
very good memory.  Not bragging about it.  Sometimes I think it is a 
curse because I remember every detail.  Not always so so good.  

When I think of Shadow I picture this fearless little kitty.
Everything was fair game to him.  Unfortunately, he did not have much 
of a chance to develop into his own self, but the few months 
he was with us left us with lots to smile about.

I called Brutus my baby because he was.  He still is.  When he died I told myself that
I will never have another baby.  Meaning that I could not and would nt allow
 myself to ever call any other kitty my baby.  I have not gotten there yet with Sniff. 
 I hope one day I will find it in my heart to call Sniff my baby,  He is a good kitty. 
 He does not like being picked up much, but I do it everyday.  Hoping.

It's been 2 years and 1 month today since Brutus died.  The agonizing pain has
gotten better, but sometimes all of a sudden something breaks and I am
 back to square one.  We love our little Sniff Sniff.  I look forward to seeing
 him everyday and to taking care of him.  He makes our house a home.

One day I am sure he will be our little boy the way Brutus was.  
In my heart Brutus still is.  For me it is a struggle to let go.  Always has been, 
but I am always working on it and giving it my best shot.  Hoping always for the best.

Sometimes we have to let go of what's killing us, even if it's killing us to let go.
Some of us think that holding on makes us strong. but sometimes it's letting go


Dec 4, 2017

Monday Already? ~

New week.  Bring it on...

As a new week begins I am pretty excited and relaxed to see how it goes.  
At Almost Home we have a new family.  My new maintenance/
property manager couple also have 2 children.  I am already 
smitten with them and in particular with their boys.

  It is very rare today to find young kids so well mannered and polite.  We took 
them all out for lunch on Saturday and all I can say is how impressed I am.  
The entire family are just the epitome of politeness.  I see good things 
for all of us.  Makes Arvid and I very happy and relaxed.

Yes, the week will be good.  As always as I leave home in the mornings or 
on my way home from work I am always distracted with the scenery and
 with everything in sight.  As always we keep seeing the deers. I always 
do my best to not spook them and definitely try to get pictures.

To all a very good start of this week.  Make it spectacular and 
whatever it is that comes your way, give it your best shot.  

Make today amazing...


Dec 3, 2017

Good Time Of The Year ~

The holiday season is the perfect time to reflect on our blessings
and seek out ways to make life better for those around us...

Across the street from Almost Home.  At nights everything
just lights up and the street is transformed.  Christmas is soon here.

No plans for Christmas other than work and work.  No visit to my family this year.
  Bummer, but we chose to do this and knew that our time will be taken
up in this venture.  Good thing is that we have gotten into the rhythm
of it and are now more relaxed about "running a hotel"

Taking a minute to sit and watch the fall colors at Almost Home
Of course there are days when I feel like taking the entire day "off"
but that feeling does not last too long.  I am probably worse than Arvid in that sense.
  He can take time off from his place every so often because he has good people
capable of running and managing the place for him.  I don't and I think
even if I did I wont be happy to leave Almost Home for long.  It's how
I am and I can't change that.  Dad taught us responsibility first.

Both Arvid and I are recovering from the cold, but to be on the safe
side we still take our NyQuil at nights.  No need for a relapse
right now.  Don't have the time.  All good here in Branson.

Sniff has been sleeping very close to me at nights again.  Loving it. 
He is probably cold.  I love the feeling of him tucked into me.  Warm and fuzzy. 
That being said he takes all my covers and for most of the night I am partially
without cove on my back, but I lay still and listen to him and Arvid "snore"

Another week gone by in a flash.  This has been a hectic but extremely good week.
I am a little more relaxed and looking forward to our Sunday outing already.

Wishing you all a good day.  Remember
it's always the little things that make us smile.

Embrace the day.  Life is not the way it is supposed to be. 
It is the way it is.  The way we cope with it is what makes the difference...


Dec 1, 2017

Let It Be A Good Day ~

You can't start the next chapter if you keep re-reading the last one...

Sometimes for what ever reason, we just feel like quitting and giving up.
You are not alone in feeling this way.  It happens to all of us. I was just 
talking to my girlfriend and for a moment while I listened to her, I realize again
that what I thought was a bad time is actually just something in passing.

Someone said, it is during our darkest moments 
that we must focus to see the light. 

Something to think about.

It is very easy to give advise when you are not
the one walking in that persons footsteps.  The best thing is 
to let them know you care and that you are always here for them.
Sometimes you just have to find a place inside where there's joy, 
and the joy will burn out the pain.  At least you hope it will.

My Brutus, forever in our hearts and always in my thoughts.  He took my heart.
Lil Shadow's memory makes me smile and at the same time it huts.  What a "guy" he was.
Sniff is here with us today and yes, he makes our life better.  I love little Sniff.

The minute you think of giving up
think of the reason why you held on so long...