Oct 23, 2014

Vet Time Again....

Life was easier when you stopped caring, 
when you stopped expecting things to get better...

Can't sleep.  Stressed!  In a few hours we will be dropping Brutus off at the vet.  He will be
staying there for most of the day and hopefully we will be picking him up this afternoon. Brutus
 once again is going to have his paw cut open in hope to see what is going on.  The paw has
 taken a life of it's own again and aside from the swelling there is a huge tumor
 like protrusion sticking out.  Seems full of something but what we don't
 know as yet.  Hopefully we will soon. It is now 6am and Brutus
 and I are awake.  He senses that something is going on.

Last night he was so affectionate again.  Just like in Chicago, he took my place on the
 recliner.  Brutus and Arvid were watching TV in comfort while I was sitting on
the floor. I don't mind the floor for a while even if it's a little hard

10:55am.  We dropped Brutus off at the vet.  I left a part of me there and I will not be OK
 until I hear that he has woken up from surgery. I did not help that we were asked
 to sign a consent to do CPR in worst case scenario.  It's quiet at home.
Now we wait.  All I know is that it is going to be a long day.
  Good thing we have lots to do to keep us busy.

I know that there is no use getting all worked up, but I am human after all, and that's what
 we do we worry even though we know it will not make things any better.  As someone
said, happiness is a choice. You can choose to be happy. There's going to be stress
 in life, but it's your choice whether you let it affect you or not.
That said, I will can't stop worrying until I know he's OK
 and out of surgery and back home with us.

Raining and raining here.  Stay dry and hope your day is a good one. I will try to
do my best to always turn a negative situation into a positive one.

In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, 
to plow your anger and your energy into something positive...