Not Myself Right Now...

Smile Nadiya, a brand new day awaits you.
Every new day is another chance to change something in your life...

Usually I can pull myself out of things and keep focusing on the positive 

and good in everything, but since Brutus died and today is exactly 4 weeks, (28 days) without 

him, I find that focusing right now is as good as before.  I find myself being lots slower than

usual and I find that I really don't want people around me nor do I wish to go out much.

I find myself not tolerant to people who talk nonsense and always about themselves.

Never one to really care for it, but at least I was tolerant to it.  I find myself not

interested anymore in any of the social media things I used to like before.

I hardly want to go on the Internet nor am I that interested in writing my blog these days.

It was always a source of enjoyment for me, but since Brutus died I really don't 

find the joy that much in much anymore.  I know that will change.  Not today.

To our friends, I ask please be patient with me.  If you see I get sad or look lost it's because I 

am sad and I do feel lost right now.  If you visit us, please don't feel upset if I want you 

to leave fairly soon. I don't want company for hours and I'm sure it will take me a very

 long time before I will.  Short visits are always OK.  Please don't overstay.

Somehow I can't seem to get past the sadness in my heart.  I am trying so very hard,
 but it's seems I am stuck.  Stuck in the same spot I was 4 weeks, 28 days ago when 

Brutus died, yet I don't know how 28 days have already gone by.  Almost a month

 without my Brutus.  Has been 28 days of pure hell.  Yes, Shadow
 is cute and he keeps us entertained, but he's not you Brutus.

Another day, and we have many little things to do.  Staying busy is what it is
all about for me right now.  Busier than usual is what I want.  Arvid has a knack of
staying busy.  Right now I wish I could keep myself occupied all day long, but there are
openings, many openings in the day when my mind wanders to you.

Brutus, I always said that something was done wrong with you. It was confirmed,
and now how the heck do we deal with this blow to our already broken hearts?

Shadow does not like being brushed as yet.  Shadow does not wait for us at the
 door when we come home as yet, hopefully he will one day. Shadow is not
sitting by my side right now as I drink my cafe and write my blog.
Maybe one day he will fill some of the void mama and dada have.

To all may your day be a happy one and may you never experience
what we are right now.  Good morning and enjoy this new day.

A new day: Be open enough to see opportunities. Be wise enough
 to be grateful.  Be courageous enough to be happy..

~Nadiya~

A New Week...

Each new day is a blank page in the diary of your life. 

The secret of success is in turning that diary into the best story you possibly can...

Yesterday ended on a very wet note.  Here in Florida when it rains it pours heavily for about
half hour and then it clears up again.  Last night it rained for quite some time with lightning
and thunder.  Poor Brutus was not sure if to hide or just hang out.  Finally he decided to

 seek covers underdog the bed sheets.  I tried to take a few pictures of the lightning,

 but ended up getting soaking wet.  Was worth the try.

Now it's a new day and a new week.

Today we have a few people coming to see the apartment. At least two, as of right now.  Yesterday
I showed it also.  Truth is I really enjoy what I do.  In the last 10 days we have met some
very interesting people.  One of the customers from yesterday even told me that if I was
ever in the need for furniture he was the guy to call.
We actually hit it off right away.

Last night as the thunder eased off Brutus finally came out of his hiding spot.  Where does he go?  

He jumps right onto Arvids lap and took another siesta.  Brutus is always so comfy on

 Arvid and I really enjoy watching them together.

Lunch at Houston's yesterday was as always delicious and enjoyable.  The views are 

awesome and the food always delicious.  Both of us really enjoy our Sunday outings.  

It's our alone time. Something that we really enjoy.

Lots of things to do today so hoping to get an early start on things. Brutus and I have been 

awake a little before 6 watching the sunrise.  Today t is unusually beautiful. Even Brutus 

had to take a minute to watch it with me.  He has the best view from his condo.

Have many things to do today; as always Mondays somehow seem to always 

be a little extra busy.  Always good to get an early start as well.

Our day here in Fort Lauderdale so far is looking pretty amazing.  The sun is shining

the boats are already whizzing by, yes activity has begun.  Loving it!!!

Good morning to all and may you all have a great week ahead.

Remember friends there is always something to be grateful for.

No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. 

Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs...

~Nadiya~