Nov 5, 2020

November 5th 2020 ๐Ÿ˜ข It's Five Years Without You ๐Ÿ˜ข~

๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’™ The best and most beautiful things
 on this earth cannot be seen or even touched 
 they must be felt with the heart.  Brutus, I 
will feel you in my heart forever...๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’™


No matter who tries to teach you lessons about life
 you won't understand it until you go through it on
 your own.   Brutus, you are the last thing I think of
 before I fall asleep and the first thing I think of when
 I wake up.  Mama misses you so very much ๐Ÿ˜ข


Five years ago today our Brutus died. He was my baby and 
when he died a part of me died also.  There is not a single day 
that goes by that I don't think of him, and not a single day that
 I don't miss him.  Brutus took with him a part of my heart ๐Ÿ’”.


No matter what I say and what I do 
 there is not a single moment that I don't think 
of you.  I really miss you. You came into my
 life and then became my life ๐Ÿ’™.


My mind knows that you are gone, but my heart 
will never accept it.  I miss you so much. Every night
 I put my head to my pillow I try to tell myself I'm 
strong because I went one more day without you. 


I don't really know if I will ever stop missing Brutus.
  Just the mention of his name brings up all the times we had
 with him.  Even Arvid is all teary eyed, at the same time it does
 not take away from the love I have for Sniff.  Sniff is all love
 and he has made our home and our lives a better place, 
but my Brutus took a piece of my heart with him.


Someone once asked me what was the most difficult 
thing about having a cat is.  I shook my head.  Looked down 
to the floor with my eyes closed and replied, "The Goodbye." 
 I miss you Brutus and there is no more to say.


Mama misses you so very much.  One of the hardest
 battles you will ever face will be between what you know
 in your head and what you feel in your heart ๐Ÿ˜ฅ.


Some days the memory still knocks the wind out
 of me. Only someone special can make ordinary moments
 seem extraordinary. The song is ended, but the melody 
lingers on.  When your little heart stopped beating,
 my heart just broke in two, knowing that here on 
earth, there will never be another like you.


The tears in my eyes I can wipe away.  
The ache in my heart will always stay...

~Nadiya~