Aug 8, 2016

Facebook ~ Changes ~ Choices ~

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony...

Facebook is something Arvid and I disagree about, until maybe now. 
 I have really enjoyed seeing pictures, reading funny stuff and enjoying
 many of the quirks Facebook delivers, be it true or not.

Arvid has always been "pestering" me to "get out" of Facebook.  Usually I 
don't listen to Arvid, that is not unless I come to the decision by myself. 
 Maybe I am getting to that point where I have come to that point.

Yesterday I told Arvid that I may have reached that stage where I am no longer 
interested in Facebook.  I asked him what he thought.  Of course he was
 all for "get out of it."  I told him that one of the main reasons I do
 Facebook is so that we can see pictures of family and friends.  

Facebook is a way to keep up with family, but Arvid said that he talks to his
 family every week and we "see" the grand kids also once a week.  He said "I don't 
need to see anything that's posted on Facebook.  The less I know the better we are."
As for my family, we chat all the time and we see each other every so often.

Ever since Brutus died things have not been the same for me.  Facebook brings up 
memories of what happened on so and so day.  Yes, I can turn it off, but something in 
me will not let me do so.  In every memory there is Brutus.  My Brutus who I miss
 so very much.  My Brutus who I will never hold again.  It breaks my heart. 
 I won't turn it off, but at the same time maybe I can take a break from it.

Sniffer is now part of our lives and hopefully will be here with us for many years
 to come.  I will never not think of my Brutus.  I will never stop missing him nor
 loving him, but Sniffer deserves the same attention we gave to Brutus. 

 It will never be the same again for me.  Yesterday I asked Arvid, "do you love Sniffer?" 
 He said "yes, but it's not the same as it was with Brutus."  Yes it will take us some time, but 
Sniffer is loved just not the way Brutus was.  Maybe one day it will get better.  
Maybe now is a good time to take some time off from Facebook as well. 

Friends know how to contact me and family we know how to contact each other.
Last night I uploaded one of my last pictures.  I changed my cover picture.  
The old one was with Shadow and I.  My profile picture, that I can't change for
 now.  It's me and my Brutus.  I don't want to ever change it.

Brutus was my life.  I am so not ready to let go of him.  I can't.  I just can't.
I may be causing more pain to myself, but I just can't help it.  My baby is 
dead and I am missing him like crazy.  Today, yesterday, everyday.

Monday.  New week and hopefully a good one for all of us.  We all have burdens
 we carry.  How we deal with them is what counts.  Obviously there are times 
I don't deal with mine so well.  But life is not perfect.  I am not perfect 
and that is what makes each of us the person we are.

Good morning all.  May today and everyday be a day to remember.

I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal.  I own, 
however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps.