Nov 25, 2015

Wednesday... November 25th

The secret of being happy is accepting where you are in life,
 and making the most of everyday...(easier said than done sometimes)

November has not been the smoothest month for us and for so many others, but as they say 
everyday that you are above ground is a good day.  The sun is shining, we are healthy
 and that compared to what many others have is definitely a good day.  

Good morning everyone.  Already halfway through the week.  Tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day
 here in the United States.  It's a day where all families get together and enjoy quality time
 and yes football.  Lots of good snacks.  Already my nieces and one of my nephews 
from college have found their way back home to their mom and dad.

  Right now they are being pampered and cared for just like when they lived at home. 
 They could not be happier neither could their parents.  Beautiful time of the  year.

Our day is going to be a little busy.  Happy for that because it keeps the not so 
happy thoughts, and memories at bay even for a short period.

Can't complain. Yesterday was a very traumatic and emotional day for me. Not
only was I witnessing the pain of our family being torn apart by tragedy, but I was also
experiencing flashbacks and yes agony over a tragedy that I also experienced years
 ago and also the pain of Brutus dying. I witnessed the cremation process. 

 Hit me like a ton of rocks because when Paul Riley was cremated I realized I had not 
put in in coffin any of his favorite items.  Neither did we do this for Brutus. 
 Tore me apart because I saw that my uncle and cousins had put in my aunts coffin some 
of her favorite items.  This has me feeling like I failed the ones I loved so very much.

Another memory I will have to live with.  Arvid and Shadow are here.  Could not have 
had a better person in my life than Arvid.  He is everything I could have asked for in
 the man I will share the rest of my life with.  I know with him everything will be 
all right.  Shadow is a handful, and keeps us busy.  He's already daddy's boy.

To all a very happy day.  May there always be laughter and joy in your 
lives, and may you always live in interesting times.

Everyday is a new beginning.  Stay away from what might 
have been and look what can be...