Apr 28, 2016

Another Day....

Time has a wonderful way of showing us what really matters.
The bad news is time flies.  The good news is that you are the pilot...

The days, the weeks, the months, are just flying by so very fast.  As we all know time 
stops for no one.  Does not matter who you are.  What you have or who you know. Time
 stops for no one.  Soon Arvid, Sniffer and I will be going to Chicago for the summer. 

 Chicago is definitely my favorite city as I have mentioned so many times before, but I'm 
not exactly sure if I am excited or not.  Arvid is very excited and talks about going
 there everyday.  For me Chicago is Arvid, Brutus and I and not taking him 
with us is just freaking me out. In my mind home is with Brutus.

That's probably why I refuse to think much about it.  From Chicago we will take off 
to Norway.  Usually I stress over Brutus because of how his paw was.  Always hurties. 
 Now Sniffer is healthy.  I hope always.  Last year we went to Norway for 28 days.
   This year we have no Brutus and we will only be there for 18 days.

I try to stay busy all the time because I still find that when I'm not doing something 
my mind wanders even more.  Yesterday Arvd was out and I had to take the clothes out
 from the dryer.  I could not.  I still can't touch the dryer with out wanting to scream. 
 Finally I opened it after half an hour and let it stay open for an hour until it was 
cooler.  It's just so hot in there.  So hot.  I don't want to go there.  I can't.

Today is 175 days without Brutus.  175 day I have not seen him.  Held him.  
Hugged him.  Kissed him.  175 day that I have been missing my baby,
 and as Arvid bluntly puts it, "he's never coming back."

Today is also 54 days since my little shadow died.  How crazy life is.  Soon Sniff would have 
been with us for 2 months.  He's brought laughter back into our world.  I'm training him
to have his leash on for when we travel.  He of course hates it, but a little everyday, and I'm
 sure he will be good.  Today was his first try.  He has a lot to learn. I guess I can say the
 same about me.  I have a lot to learn about life.  A lot. It's a learning game everyday.

Good morning everyone.  Just a reminder to take time and appreciate what's
 right in front of you.  Take time to be grateful.  I am doing the same.  Today, everyday.

The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.
Dear God, if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have...