I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself.
For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is
determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition...
Yesterday was a very intense day. For hours and hours we waited for Brutus' bet to call and
to just reassure us that we were doing the right thing. By 5 pm still no call and by then I
had already called their office two times. Just when I thought there was not going to
be a call the phone rings. The vet and I had a 15 minute or so conversation.
You see the vet that recommended Brutus to be amputated was not Brutus' vet, but another
vet that worked in the same office. So I talk to his vet and just for reassurances I ask
him what is his opinion regarding this amputation. Well he was very firm
that Brutus not be amputated. He said that this was not called for.
Well as you know Arvid and I had already decided that this was how it was going to be, based on
the opinion of the other vet. I also found out that the surgeon who would have performed
the amputation is the husband of this other vet that saw Brutus. To say we were relieved
was one thing, but that still means medicines everyday. Brutus' vet said we have to
give him the opportunity to heal with the medicines. For now Brutus
has a reprieve from becoming a three legged kitty. For now.
That was good news. I also got some more good news from a very dear friend living in
California. She sent me a picture of a plant and she said, "do you remember theses?" How
could I not, I gave them to her a little over 20 years ago when I left California. She
and I formed a bond and friendship over the loss of a loved one.
We became friends that even with the distance nothing has broken that bond. We share
a love of cats, California, a therapist in common, living with loss and grief and overcoming it.
We share a lifetime of things that have made us stronger and we share our lives even in the
miles that separate us. Today she sent me a picture of my plant, now hers. It brought
back memories, tears and a little longing for a life that once was and no longer is.
I have a good life, but years ago I also had another life. I don't dwell in the past,
but sometimes just the smallest of things can bring back a flow of memories,
emotions and a moment of thought to what was. What used to be.
Here it is a very loud morning. Our condo has it's annual alarm testing so every 2 minutes
there is this loud beep of an alarm. Fortunately Brutus is not afraid of it. For me
it is more annoying than anything else. Oh well in the next 2 hours or so they
should be done. Have to find some ear plugs to save my hearing.
Have a good day all and to those with birthdays....Happy Birthday. Today I actually
have several friends with birthdays..that I know of. Here we are still dealing with the "cold front."
I always remember this, life brings tears, smiles and memories.
The tears dry. The smiles fade, but the memories last forever.
Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.