Jul 22, 2016

Hello Friday...

For what we have once enjoyed and deeply loved we can never lose,
for all that we love deeply becomes a part of us.  That's what they say...

Not sure what it is but I am tired.  Not sleeping enough, and running around all day is
 wearing me out and I am physically and mentally exhausted.  I spoke to my mom and 
one of my sisters yesterday and hearing their voices made me want to go home.

The other day  read about a friend's kitty who was going into surgery and they were not
 sure if she was going to make it or not.  Well you can imagine what went through my 
head and what thoughts are still there.  My Brutus never came home from surgery.

Once again it is tearing me apart.  It's killing me, but I just can't seem to stop the images 
from running wild in my head.  I can't and thoughts of Shadow is also driving me crazy.
  I want to go home because I think I am closer to them there.  It will "pass" I'm sure, but 
right now it's all I can think of.  Grief as you know comes in waves and right now I am 
having hurricane like waves and no matter what I do, I can't stop them from coming.

How is it that so many "humans" I know have been able to move on when a loved 
one has died, and I can't seem to do so?  What makes it so much easier for them?

On the other hand we enjoyed a very good day at Victoria and Micheal's or
Villa VM as it's known.  The food as always was excellent and always the fist thing
 you see as you walk in is an amazing arrangement.  The eyes have a feast.

It was a wonderful day spent in the company of family.  There and then everything felt OK.
Victoria and Michael are ALWAYS the perfect host and hostess.  Thank you again.

Grief isn't something you get over.  It is something you go through.  Those who do
 not know how to weep with their whole heart don't know how to laugh either...